Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Dedicated to ISL Pune (1st June, 2007 … 24th June, 2010)

Chapter Two

Everyone's expectation to this world is 'change'. We too all see world changing everyday. But sometimes , these changes become our habits, thus a person changes and as his perspective. Life is a flowing energy, you can't hold it for long. You can share, control or transform it, but can't ever generate and destroy it, so keep changing. (And this rule hold for Money too.)

I saw and felt the impact of things/events, on someone's heart and mind. When you loose someone, in such a way that you never gonna see/meet or there is very faint rays of hope to be together, you see change in yourself.

Moments, which slap our mind, have less potential to change our behavior, then which shock our heart, thus a person changes and so does his perspective.

I can't tell the whole story as it is; how I changed from a very free person to a lion in cage. (lion as adj.) 'coz I feel much powerful, when behaved with controlled mind and learnt forgiveness.

There are many persons close to my heart, especially two. There are many who had made a home on the ground of my heart, but they are still living there. And for these two, I was given no reaction time, as I got very short notice period, when they emptied it. Even I was not there to sit and watch, when they were going to their own new journey.

As of today I am feeling that my heart drowning more and more deeper, the light of hope is dimming, darkness is increasing in my courses, distance to destiny is increasing. Sometimes my heart is losing faith in most divine and intact thing is this world.(love)

My father, my inspirations to do right in society, a value to life of others, a person who sacrificed his life for whom, I never will. He was meant to the people with whom he lived with. I never find words to describe him, only I can see, my best friend left me behind and alone,  when I needed him the most. (Now its almost 2yr+)

The last moment, I remember with him, was 5 am in the morning, when I left for Pune, after Deeepawali vacations. There was very dim light, it was little cold and foggy. After getting on ride, I saw back, and waved my hand in goodbye, and that was last moment, my mind can recall clearly.

I will talk about him, in next posts, but here I would like to throw some light on second person, who also helped my heart to become heavy. (Once upon a time in Pune.)

So, there are many scenarios when our heart get hurt. With time we heal and see changes in ourselves. I hope every good change would be long lasting.

Changes, thats all I talked about, are made for whom, who seek for more opportunities, more responsibility and more reliability. Somewhere I read, when a person asks GOD for exploration or opportunity he/she should look at each problem as they got chance to prove themselves.

Again, my life in the first 3 years, I think I got what I asked, but the way how I get, may not be liked by majority.

I am thankful to all Puneties and Friends who are with me.

With love...

जब जागी थी कोई तरंग मन में, तो बन गयी थी कहीं एक कविता,
जब भर आया था मन याद में, तो बह निकली थी कहीं एक सरिता,
हर राही यहाँ पर है बंधा हुआ है, अपनी ही ह्रदय तरंगो से,
जब हो ग़ुम जाये रास्तें, दिशायें, तो दिल-दीमाग में बनती है सविता (conversation)

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Dedicated to ISL Pune (1st June, 2007 … 24th June, 2010)

Chapter One

When I came to know that I would be joining alone from my batch at IBM Pune, my heart had had mixed of feelings. My heart was full with feeling of to meet new people, exploring new places, and a new era of adventures, starting of professional life; along with fear of loneliness, sadness of distance from friends and family.

My manager was aware of my situation and he told me that I would find a new family here too, the IBM family, and friends, the Team.

I ascertain that he was very true, today with wet eyes I am leaving my family and friends behind, with heavy heart, and same mixed feelings. I am gonna miss you all smiling, sometimes angry but supportive, just living in a family. We will surely meet in future many times. (Anyway, I am working with you, just remotely.)

But today my heart wants to share you what it felt here and thank you all for your warm and kind support that it got, in all kind of situations.

I joined TDI, when team was relaxing, 611 version was out and they were planning for next release. When I meet the team, I may be, just a team member for them, but this was my first introduction to my new family.

Days went on and we enjoyed more and more with team gatherings, team parties, many other events, and team lunches.

I am not able to recall all the small and big events, but sometime when I retrospect, moments float in front of me, as they are just occurred yesterday.

The list of names is endless for me, I may not be able to remember all at once. But I am sure, all the families are reserved safely in my mind.

Many events passed through me in these 3 years short spawn. Some of them really shake me, some kept my heart together. But we, in family, all were together to make the time pass.

I will be writing more about all these in coming blogs, but today I would like to share about my new team, TPM, which I joined just 3 months back.

I joined TPM, when the time was crucial, work was put ahead of self, and team’s dedication was on its height.

This family is comprising, Test Team, L3 Team, Install Dev, Patch Dev, and Cloud Dev. I was in install along with 3 members then. Now we have grown to 6.

Today, the success of TPM release tells the story of our accomplishment of work assignment, collaboration, dedication, sacrifices, and togetherness.

Other then work, we have yet to celebrate the success, but we had our favorite FGT (Food and Gossip Time), party lunch for stars, and birthday celebrations. I am gonna miss all these; but I will join there some team for parties, at Gurgaon, I hope. ;)

Tomorrow, I am leaving, with all warm and joyful memories. Thanks for all your support; I hope this will be for me throughout my life time.

All the best to all loving ones….

You will hear more soon, in next coming post…