Gurgaon - Episode 'Finale'

Most of the time a big question haunts all intellectual people. Which is "What should we do?, to our life, our career, our money, our neighborhood, our society, our government, world and universe!" And when we are not satisfied with our work or personal life, this question becomes itchy. After sometime, we strongly required some cure and thus begins a start over.

Many people haven't courage to put a foot in a new direction, many look around and wait for omens or signal from universe/omens, when to push the start button, many start without thinking of different aspects of the new path. I would like to share a line here for new travelers.

"If you are confused and want to know, how the new path will be, ask those who are returning on the same path."


This feeling is complicated, you may feel excited and fearful at the same time, which trills you and believe me this is an omen for Adventurous people.

Like Sachin is trilled, waiting for a winning match. 



I too captured with the feeling of not doing new to life, or learning something meaningful. As an optimistic behavior, which leads me sometime, I traveled to Some monuments in Alwar, Mumbai, Pune and finally Laddakh to get the signals. and I concluded from whole searching that the more high you go, more knowledge you gain, more questions you ask to yourself; less you get the signals :) {true with electronics equipment too}.


I was standing on a Y-way path with 2 options in front of me, either go to USA and make money or do something useful and pleasant to my work life and stay with family.

I asked IBM to support my Idea and they did, I finally fall into a new life, where no work to do, just to study all scattered knowledge around me.

This is not 'finale' of my professional life, but sure this is a pause, and I am confident that it will not last long.

I would like to share some feeling and how to deal with them, when a monthly salary is stopped, and you have just got what you have earned till the date (money and knowledge).

First, you enjoyed it like you are on a holiday, even without going outside or visiting places; as a software person to relax, I think, you just don't want to hear some words like 'deadline, report, status meeting, delayed project and so on..'

Then, you get bored, as there are no friends to accompany you for time pass chat during breakfast, lunch, evening walks. This may become hard for you, but it will overcome if you share sometime with your family, and increase your reading habit.

Then, you afraid of failure, as you may have learnt some skills like "how to be lazy, how to postpone the work near to deadline,  how to ignore manager's remarks, evolution etc." But now you are the manager of your activity and its painful, so again read some management fundas and back on the track.

When you overcome all of above feelings, you feel relaxed, motivated, and full of energy and knowledge. Whenever you see something/problem around you, ideas started jumping out of your head. 

So, this is arduous process to learn 'the power of knowledge' and  believe me there is no other way around. 

With warm wishes...

@Gurgaon - Episode One

Its not easy to change your work environment. But now-a-days company switch and location  change is a trend between IT industry professionals. When I relocated to Gurgaon, I too felt some changes but IBM gives you an opportunity to create a homey environment at any office across India (or may be worldwide.)

When I entered in office first time after relocation, the very first task was to get a seat. There were lots of options. Shortly I came to know people usually work from home and don't used their assigned seats. Even some people only do came to office twice in a month. So, in Pune where office space was at crunch where as in Gurgaon you hardly found people in office.

I was having an info already that where 'Remote' employees sit, so without looking all over just moved to a seat where 'passing by people' can't see my monitor. In office, social networking sites are most visited/browsed after Google.

After seat problem resolution, which was easy task, another problem was lunch group. For the first week I had to go lunch alone, as without team I didn't had much options. I looked around the office, find out places where employees kill the office time etc.

I came to know very quickly that without team or friends office place will start biting me, so before things happened to hurt me, I took a lead to the situation and talked to nearby colleagues by asking usual help like movies, songs and games. You know, all software people love this stuff on computers.

Now, I had a friend circle, and one area of the office become live, and the remaining area usually stared at us. Both of the sides were wondering how the change came to them at work.

So, the first month I spent on, making friends and lunch circle. It was a great opportunity to me, about testing my skills "how to make friends" which I have learned at Pune with mistakes.

After first month, again time started flying. Weekend at home, busy work with house construction. And I too got time to placate friends, who wished that I should have visited them frequently.

With hope for the best...

"सुनामी करवा देती है, नाविक की ताकत का एहसास,
दूरीयाँ बता देती है, प्यार की गहरायी का एहसास;
उभरता है कौशल अ-राही, हर किसी के परखने से,
संयम ही देता है, हर मजबूरी से लड़ने का एहसास"

Dedicated to ISL Pune (1st June, 2007 … 24th June, 2010)

Chapter Two

Everyone's expectation to this world is 'change'. We too all see world changing everyday. But sometimes , these changes become our habits, thus a person changes and as his perspective. Life is a flowing energy, you can't hold it for long. You can share, control or transform it, but can't ever generate and destroy it, so keep changing. (And this rule hold for Money too.)

I saw and felt the impact of things/events, on someone's heart and mind. When you loose someone, in such a way that you never gonna see/meet or there is very faint rays of hope to be together, you see change in yourself.

Moments, which slap our mind, have less potential to change our behavior, then which shock our heart, thus a person changes and so does his perspective.

I can't tell the whole story as it is; how I changed from a very free person to a lion in cage. (lion as adj.) 'coz I feel much powerful, when behaved with controlled mind and learnt forgiveness.

There are many persons close to my heart, especially two. There are many who had made a home on the ground of my heart, but they are still living there. And for these two, I was given no reaction time, as I got very short notice period, when they emptied it. Even I was not there to sit and watch, when they were going to their own new journey.

As of today I am feeling that my heart drowning more and more deeper, the light of hope is dimming, darkness is increasing in my courses, distance to destiny is increasing. Sometimes my heart is losing faith in most divine and intact thing is this world.(love)

My father, my inspirations to do right in society, a value to life of others, a person who sacrificed his life for whom, I never will. He was meant to the people with whom he lived with. I never find words to describe him, only I can see, my best friend left me behind and alone,  when I needed him the most. (Now its almost 2yr+)

The last moment, I remember with him, was 5 am in the morning, when I left for Pune, after Deeepawali vacations. There was very dim light, it was little cold and foggy. After getting on ride, I saw back, and waved my hand in goodbye, and that was last moment, my mind can recall clearly.

I will talk about him, in next posts, but here I would like to throw some light on second person, who also helped my heart to become heavy. (Once upon a time in Pune.)

So, there are many scenarios when our heart get hurt. With time we heal and see changes in ourselves. I hope every good change would be long lasting.

Changes, thats all I talked about, are made for whom, who seek for more opportunities, more responsibility and more reliability. Somewhere I read, when a person asks GOD for exploration or opportunity he/she should look at each problem as they got chance to prove themselves.

Again, my life in the first 3 years, I think I got what I asked, but the way how I get, may not be liked by majority.

I am thankful to all Puneties and Friends who are with me.

With love...

जब जागी थी कोई तरंग मन में, तो बन गयी थी कहीं एक कविता,
जब भर आया था मन याद में, तो बह निकली थी कहीं एक सरिता,
हर राही यहाँ पर है बंधा हुआ है, अपनी ही ह्रदय तरंगो से,
जब हो ग़ुम जाये रास्तें, दिशायें, तो दिल-दीमाग में बनती है सविता (conversation)

Dedicated to ISL Pune (1st June, 2007 … 24th June, 2010)

Chapter One

When I came to know that I would be joining alone from my batch at IBM Pune, my heart had had mixed of feelings. My heart was full with feeling of to meet new people, exploring new places, and a new era of adventures, starting of professional life; along with fear of loneliness, sadness of distance from friends and family.

My manager was aware of my situation and he told me that I would find a new family here too, the IBM family, and friends, the Team.

I ascertain that he was very true, today with wet eyes I am leaving my family and friends behind, with heavy heart, and same mixed feelings. I am gonna miss you all smiling, sometimes angry but supportive, just living in a family. We will surely meet in future many times. (Anyway, I am working with you, just remotely.)

But today my heart wants to share you what it felt here and thank you all for your warm and kind support that it got, in all kind of situations.

I joined TDI, when team was relaxing, 611 version was out and they were planning for next release. When I meet the team, I may be, just a team member for them, but this was my first introduction to my new family.

Days went on and we enjoyed more and more with team gatherings, team parties, many other events, and team lunches.

I am not able to recall all the small and big events, but sometime when I retrospect, moments float in front of me, as they are just occurred yesterday.

The list of names is endless for me, I may not be able to remember all at once. But I am sure, all the families are reserved safely in my mind.

Many events passed through me in these 3 years short spawn. Some of them really shake me, some kept my heart together. But we, in family, all were together to make the time pass.

I will be writing more about all these in coming blogs, but today I would like to share about my new team, TPM, which I joined just 3 months back.

I joined TPM, when the time was crucial, work was put ahead of self, and team’s dedication was on its height.

This family is comprising, Test Team, L3 Team, Install Dev, Patch Dev, and Cloud Dev. I was in install along with 3 members then. Now we have grown to 6.

Today, the success of TPM release tells the story of our accomplishment of work assignment, collaboration, dedication, sacrifices, and togetherness.

Other then work, we have yet to celebrate the success, but we had our favorite FGT (Food and Gossip Time), party lunch for stars, and birthday celebrations. I am gonna miss all these; but I will join there some team for parties, at Gurgaon, I hope. ;)

Tomorrow, I am leaving, with all warm and joyful memories. Thanks for all your support; I hope this will be for me throughout my life time.

All the best to all loving ones….

You will hear more soon, in next coming post…

 

One month of mixed suffering and fun...

“Few people are lucky to have a feeling about ‘gain, loose and regain’ of power, in their hands.” The feeling is neither simple nor complicated, it just makes you happy.

Last week was quite welcoming for me, as Hospital said ‘Goodbye’ to me, and I got my power back to drive (Its 200cc only), but after experiencing the loose-gain theory of power, it truly ‘Feel Like God!’(Avenges caption) I enjoyed nearly a month less working, better sleeping, and taking rest at my flat. Working from home is amazing; I seriously want to thank the IBMer who invented this idea of sleeping after lunch; that we usually did in college life.

This was a new experience for me, friends visited me with smiles, as I have done in my past but never think of opposite (Now this happened to me.)

I don’t know why people talk all about accidents when someone don’t want to remember at all, may be they got at least one chance to educate you how to avoid accidents and share what they have learned. Learning are always like an indigestible food to human being, and they comes out involuntarily even not a place to do so.

I want to thanks all my friends who gave their precious time and suggestion and support to recover from the incident.

The phase through I passed, for last one month, was very new experience to me, first time I feel fear to drive in Pune. The awareness while driving is high, I can see and do care of a little cat/dog moving behind me, even after not sleeping for whole night.

Finally, I hope this is over, I am going home this Friday, started packing ….

Love to all…

Truck accident and learning.

3 weeks ago, I was not able to see a truck for a moment and I got bed rest. Who make the mistakes doesn't matter, but we suffer from consequences.

At least I got a chance so that my friends got a reason to come to my home and talk. Good part is getting sweets.

There is always a good side of any event (not say accident here). You get time to read, play computer games, write and a lot to think, you get a break from office, and can miss deadlines now.

I celebrated this Diawali alone; lightened candles, tested good sweets spare time with music and tv...

Visiting hospitals is boring, even after getting an appointment , and the doctor doesn't show up, fusssssss, do hospital get complains book?
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I was talking about Pune and nearby in last post, lest have some good site places.

Lonawala : You feel so close to nature, its high and deep. Cloudy and here you can hug clouds, its amazing, at base there is normal sunny day, up summit full cloudy.
Forts: these are so high that you feel so empowered with. They tell you the story about Marathas. Most of them has unique structure and features. “Zanjeera, Devgiri, Raigarh….”
Ajanta & Alora : Famous caves, live story of Buddhism
Astavinayak temples…
Dams, high and wide ..
Adventurous trekking …
Beaches … rocky , calm, sandy .. flat .. surrounded by hills.. amazing …

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Life is a story about to move on, keep walking with time, and live with the world.
I have been 2 years in Pune and keep going;
I was lost for a long time, since last November. After one year, life is coming back to normal;
I got these 3 weeks to think about more …..

You keep changing and this is what people want and its time's desire too, take life at ease and you will less to regret ….
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Work Culture in MNC

Whenever you enter a new environment of work or living, people face difficulty to understand your ideas and thoughts. And if you are lucky enough to influence other's minds after a while, they will surprisingly say that ‘Now you are talking good, and we can understand !!”. even the way is same for you. It happens and creates a lot memorable moments.

So many times in education and professional life tutors ask that you should ask questions, it doesn't matter that how silly or good they are. But when you really did this, they look at you thinking as “I said the universal line of teaching, not to follow. But you stupid …”

Sometime you ask good questions but it does matter only when the question is understood.

When I joined the new era of life, better say most unwanted life called professionals, I did obey the instructors, but at least you got noticed by asking something easy to them.

I had a healthy social environment at work, and when you ask stupid and someone smiles, you got in trouble; may be sweet or bitter but you will get a lot of experience of life.

Apart from office, at work people get involved (feelings) and this break the rule of office, when you take something other then money from office, you have to pay it back.

Let’s talk about some funny things happened to me, in office…

First two months I asked questions, and my team mates smiled at me. Even though they were not having all details or full answers. After a while the same questions were asked by release manager, so I just exchanged the laugh with my Manager.

Meanwhile I explored a lot in and out of Pune, with office team mates, friends and alone. First team tour was fantastic there were a lot stories too, will write in coming blogs...